you and no other for FOREVER!

this is my one and only lover and my best friend i have ever had! YOU AND NO OTHER FOREVER BURL! that is straight from braveheart, our favorite movie and our favorite quote, when william wallas (whom bj swears he is named after) marries the love of his life in the forest and then she dies, very sad i cry every time but the best movie ever... so close to home.

addi and daddy!

addi and i watch these videos over and over with bright eyes and huge smiles! we love you so much daddy(burl) and miss you more and more every second of every day! it gets harder and harder but we have you as our "gardner (guardian) angel", to give us comfort and peace, thank you for that! and to everyone else that has brought us so much love and support thank you, thank you, thank you so much! i wouldn't make it without you, it means the world to addi and i!

my precious sweet burl

i gave you my heart a long time ago and you took it with you, please take good care of it like you always have!! i can't wait to see you agian, lots of patience!

letter to addi from daddy

i wrote this as if my lover was still here to write it for his angel (addi)!! debbie read it for me at his funeral, she did such a good job!

To my "son" (addison)
my angel i love you so much and always will,
please know i didn't mean to leave when i got ill.
but it's only my body, my spirit is still here,
you can't see me but I see you clear.
God sent down an angel to me and gurl
knowing how much you'd change our world.
I met you on valentine's and fell in love
in my arms forever you fit like a glove.
I looked down and saw you had my nose,
my smile, knock knees, and tiny toes.
It was my addi, "son", form there on out
i wanted addi gurl gardner so i could shout
"ada gurl go, don't get out!"
I hoped it to be at a baseball game
but if it's dance my love stays the same
well i guess you do have my dancing skills
you came up with "elbows", that gave me thrills
when you are older and wiser and ready for more
the arm pit dance you will know for sure
but if that isn't doin it for you i know someone who can help
it's momy she seems to dance pretty well.
just don't let her teach you to sing
between me and you it's not the best ring
there are a couple other things don't let mommy do
like cut you hair, she promised me never to
and don't let mommy be so sad for to long awhile
you have my personality to make anyone smile!
a few more things you need to know
i taught you to crawl, walk, and blow
i got you your first 3 wheeler
stayed up all night stuffing your stocking with filler
it was so full of gifts it was twice your size
that's just how i do things, over the top, surprised?
the lastest thing i was working with you to do
was spit seeds and in sign language say "I love you"
you got hang loose down to a tee
now put up all three and hold it out to me
we watched "cars" a hundred times at least
got in and out of the hot tub just to please,
jumping on the tramp for hours never bothered me
I loved reading with you that bear bokk you gave me.
Angel I love you this world it tough
but you're strong and beautiful and all that good stuff
be a good daughter, granddaughter and friend to Thee
and you'll be a leader just like me.
be respectful, don't lie cheat or steal
never gossip... it's just not chill
be of service as much as you can
cause that's what God wants, I've met the man
you will always be in my heart and I in yours
one day you'll see me again when you knock on heavens doors
but until then mommy is yours
i know you'll make me proud no matter what you do
just know i love you and mommy too
here is one more poem mom wrote in the past
so you know how our love still lasts....

Hey my love here's a poem from the heart,
i'm going to take us back to the start
this sweet love all begun in 2001
and even then i knew you were the one!
a goody-goody cheerleader and a bad-boy picture
after one date you took me to Sunday dinner
we snuck out that night, down the canyon we flew
oh ya! our first kiss, not one but two
two totally different people with all the same interests
fell crazy in love and that's not the best
we're still crazy in love and it's been 8 years
we've been threw so much, a lot of laughter and tears
we have this perfect, irreplaceable love,
I'm so lucky to have you, i thank God above!
we have so many memories, big and small
people might get jealous if i wrote down them all
like the tropical forest or the time in Cali,
or laughin all night at the bowling alley
we've gone to moab, tahoe, and havisu pi
the grand canyon, st. george with cousin Bry
now we're apart, it's been the longest trip ever
I miss you so much, but I'll love you forever
we've seen and done a lot of crazy things
but you live and you learn, we're only human beings
I do know one thing i've learned a lot from you
you're my better half, you're what gets me through
baby i need you, my heart needs to be mend
the only one that can do it is you, my BEST FRIEND!
this poem is just the beginning of you and I
I never want it to end, I hate good-bye
but our love just keeps on keeping on
and soon we'll be together forever long!
I love you burl
love gurl
thank you everyone so much for all the love and support!! it means the world to me and addi. i know bj didn't want to go so soon, we had so many plans ahead but heavenly father knows us all better than we ever will. and all i have is faith now to know all is well! thanks again to everyone for making the funeral perfect and for being a part of bj's life!